Search me, O God,
and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any
grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!
have to admit I am notorious for the stereotypical male behavior of looking for
lost objects. Not that there haven’t
been times that I have found what I am looking for, but more often than not, I
will search and declare to the world the object of my desire has escaped my
grasped and has not been kidnapped by the same demons that still my socks from
the dryer. Amid my ramblings and
wailings for my lost object, my wife will calmly walk over to the last known
location and pick up the said object and remind me to look harder.
I am not declaring that your heart
is lost, or your way is perverse, but you could be off course and possibly
distracted from fulfilling your purpose.
David was no more different than the rest of us. David is declaring in this song that he is
having a man moment; David is sure that he is innocent of what his accusers are
blaming him, and David wants verification of what he knows to be true. The situation is when we ask God to look into
the hidden corners of our life; He always finds something.
David was doing his best to prove
that he was blameless, but by the end, he acknowledges that he needs to be
guided in the way of heaven. There are
six things that David asks God to do for him in his life to address those that
would say he is lacking. The first is to
search him. I don’t know if you ever
used a spotlight, but I would assume you have seen one in action. No matter the depth of darkness, a spotlight
illuminates a specified object no matter the night around it. Not only does it illuminate it, but it brings
to light any impurities, blemishes, or weakness that the object has. When one shines a spotlight on something,
your searching to reveal everything good that object of your illumination may
provide, but in the course of spotting them, you may also show some bad. Though
David was asking God to search for the good he had done, he was also availing
himself to be seen as the fallible man he was.
Second, he asked God to know his
heart. He is inviting God to get up and
close to him and experience, understand, and know the how of David’s
actions. It would be impossible to
divorce oneself from the facts of the motive of a persons life if you lived up
close, experienced life with them, and knew the reasons behind their
actions. It would make you complicit if
you continued to allow a friend in which you knew to do bad things if you knew
them this way. God, by David’s invite,
was asked to get into the nitty-gritty of his life, which would invite God to
question and bring into account David’s motives.
Third David asks God to try
him. David is asking God to test him.
Not a hypothetical question of possibility but to present a situation that
would require David to respond in the appropriate actions or be found
guilty. This request is not one that any
of us would naturally ask God to do in our life. However, not David, he is asking God to give
him a situation in which he can prove his faithfulness during the dire
issue. More importantly, what if David
fails, it shows God and David alike the areas that David still needs to work
Fourth, David asks God to know his
Not unlike knowing his heart, this
is to experience and understand what David is thinking. However, the heart is the seat of emotions,
so it is the motivation for the action to be taken, the mind is the
decision-maker in the everyday activities of human interactions. The heart is
the passionate reaction to life; the mind is the cognitive response to life
circumstances. David is asking God to
evaluate him in his monotony. The everyday coming and going of his life. The smallest details that most of us forgot
we did before we arrived at work this morning. David wanted God to know him in
his every day, no big deal, dealing with being a human being.
Fifth, see if there is something
terrible in David's life.
This question is not as cut and dry
as it seems, like God looking for the time David cut off another chariot rider
in traffic or cursed his soldiers for not killing enough of the enemy. No, this is an investigation as to if David
has offended someone and whether David has an awareness of the offense or
not. I can not tell you how many times I
wonder if I have said something to offend others, or questioned if my actions
have brought offense my way. However, I
haven’t asked God to verify if others are upset with me and to find out where I
messed up. This question is brutal to
consider David is asking God to make David aware of letting down those who he
Finally, to lead him in eternity.
Essentially David is asking God to
lead him in the way of heaven. This
statement is a subtle way of saying that David's way is not perfect nor divine,
which is in direct contradiction of how he began the song that he was perfect
and asked God to verify it. David is
saying maybe I have missed it, forgotten the way, or can't see where I need to
go, so he is asking God to take him by the hand and show him the way.
You might not have lost your sock,
wallet, or keys today. However, you may have lost your way. You stand in indignance that you have it all
figured out, and I simply ask, “do you?” Why don’t you ask the Holy Spirit to search
you, your motives, your actions, to test you, and show you any offense and
direction you need to take today. You
might be amazed at what He has to say to you.